The search for child care for Ellie escalated a long cycle of chaos that had engulfed my life since pre-conception. (More later on fertility issues.)

When Ellie was merely 6 weeks old, my do-it-all former Studio Manager, Francie, left JKP and is now traveling the world. I had planned to take maternity leave for one month, and 3 more months with a highly-reduced shooting schedule. Ahh, the best laid plans.

Covering shoots for two people and caring for current and potential clients was only the beginning. I also spent time writing new employee ads, posting them, interviewing, all while pumping breast milk (while talking on the phone to clients! “What’s that sound”). Twice per day Kathy brought Ellie to the studio, or Tim brought Elle to longer shoots for breast feeding.

Meanwhile I was in the midst of going 90% digital, (I can’t give up my Hasselblad!) and being forced to find a new photo lab. I was climbing the steep digital and PhotoShop learning curve and researching new processes, products and labs, when I made the crazy but inevitable decision to buy new gear and computers. I usually find new gear exploration fun and exciting. But this time, sleep deprivation and craving to spend more time with Ellie exacerbated my stressed system resulting in– you guessed it: an abstract painting of utter CHAOS!

Thank goodness for First Weeks. In addition to the soothing environment, I found our babysitter, Kathy, when her sister-in-law brought her to a First Weeks meeting. (More on First Weeks and Ann Keepler to come). I saw Kathy across the room, read her body language and thankfully trusted my first instincts (though I did check references!). Kathy helped me spot the bright light of dawn, and provided a welcomed sense of calm. She’s been with us ever since July of ’04.

You’re the best, Kathy!

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  • Susie Hamidi - Janet, I love your blog – the personality behind your words! So enjoyable to read the thoughts and feelings of a really good writer! I appreciated the link to First Weeks and I’m so looking forward to your wisdom on pregnancy and motherhood. Paul is putting the baby pressure on, so I need lots of advice! Great look for your blog! Nice and different!

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  • Serena Davidson - Your blog looks great Janet! I’ve had mine for about a year now and it is growing into it’s own thing these days. Congratulations on joining the blog-o-shpere!ReplyCancel

Fstop comes home

My dog and I met on Valentines Day in 1993. Subliminally perhaps I knew it was V- Day when I entered the Seattle Animal Shelter.

It was love at first site. This scruffy 5 month-old puppy peered through the bars, following my every move. Once I looked into those big brown, intelligent, encouraging eyes, my heart thumped, and my head spun. I knew that this was the last of my visits to the shelters. Today I had found my dog, and she me. After the neutering, (hers, not mine!) we went home and spent 13+ years together, cross-country skiing, hiking, traveling, going on photo shoots (she had a pack in which she carried film and a lens or two), and going daily to the studio together.

In August ’06, Tim and I wept together as we put F-stop down. She could barely walk to relieve herself. At this moment, 6 months later, I cry huge tears for the dog who was my perfect canine companion: spunky, clever, loving, strong, calm indoors and playful outdoors.

As we tell our daughter, Ellie, F-stop is in the Earth. We can visit with her anytime, anywhere. How grateful I am that she stepped here, into my heart.


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  • Todd Kim - hey janet, lovely blog. i like the theme template u used. im testing this comment section for ya. I dont know why but the mail portion of the comment section is completely yellow so i cant see what im typing…ReplyCancel

  • JanetKlinger - Thanks for the heads up. Jane, the html wizard, seems to have fixed the problem. Better than a partner, better than a wife: Jane!
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  • Laura - sweet words about “F”., who was indeed a perfect dog in everyway. I am only just beginning to understand blogs, computers, etc. Anyway, I enjoyed reading it, and will read others bit by bit. There’s a lot out there. Tchuss.ReplyCancel

  • Christopher Lovi - Janet,

    I love the blog. It seems that you’ll be able to make more immediate updates to what is happening in your life. Which seems to be quite a bit. That is great!!

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